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A regretful rape experience

 
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A regretful rape experience

I have kept this story inside me for so many years... :'):')

It took place when I was in UC Berkeley studying for my BS in Civil Engineering.  It was my freshman year and I decided to check out the HKSA (Hong Kong Student Association) and to meet some new friends.  There was a girl name Karen.  She was a shy girl who always stayed in the back corner of the room and always stay out of the group in most of the time.  It made me wonder why she would show up on events if she didn't want to communicate with others.

She is a slim 5'7" girl with long hair.  In fact, she is cuter than many girls in the club.  Her teeth are are so white that they are identical to those you see in toothpaste commercials.  I started to wonder how can a lovely girl like this be left along.  The only thing that bothered her was her boob size (it was what she told me later)... I always thought she was B until I found out later that she was actually A.  It never bother me since I focus more on facial appearance than bodily figures.

In one of the karaoke event, I approached her and asked her to sing a song with me.  Even though she was shy, she sang pretty well.  I still remember we sang the Alex/Stephy song that was so popular back then.  Her voice was so sweet.  Sadly, that was the only song she sang for the night.  After we finished the song, she said she had to go.  Ever since that night, this girl kept on appearing in my mind.  I was looking forward to see her in the next event.  

One week later, I met her again in the BBQ gathering.  Again, I approached her and introduced myself and we started to chat.  Most of her responses were nodding and shaking heads.  I didn't ask her too many questions just not to scare her away.  Like me, she was a freshman as well and she came from Singapore.  She was glad that I approach her.  She had trouble fitting in because she didn't know most of the Cantonese slangs that we used.  I started to teach her some of the basic ones, and of course, bad words... as we were walking home, I realized that she lived only a block from where I lived.  We exchanged phone number, ICQ, and e-mail address.  We had endless conversations ever since that night and we were always talking on the phone after 9PM (free minutes).  

Midterms were coming up, and I suggested that we study in the library to avoid all the distractions around us.  After midterms were all over, we would still study in the library together.  One night as we were walking home, I held her hand, and it was how the relationship started... I still remember the sky was clear and we were able to see the moon clearly.  We sat on the grass for an hour, watched stars, and... kissed...

As the semester moved along, we studied together, watched downloaded movies together (there was no BT back then, but those low quality divx files) at our apartment, and ate dinner together.  One time while we were watching movie together on the sofa, she fell asleep.  I started to fondle her boobs and unbutton her shirt.  I couldn't help tittering when I saw the Hello Kitty bra.  By that time, I could tell she was already awaken, and she was just pretending to sleep because she didn't know how to response.  I looked at her face and it turned all pink.  I pushed her bra up and started kissing her nipples.  She was shocked by my behavior and stopped me right away.  I then got on top of her and started to kiss her.  As I kissed her, I started to play with her nipples and fondle with her boobs.  She started to melt and began to moan helplessly.  Suddenly, her roommate knocked on the door because she forgot her keys.  She fixed herself up quickly and opened the door.  

Finals were finally over, and that marked the end to first busy semester of my college life.  During the winter break, her roommate left for two weeks.  As usual, we watched movies together, dinned together, and made out together.  I still didn't get why she was doing it, but she was pretending to sleep once again.  This time, I took it slowly, trying all my best to please her.  I started rubbing her nipples and cover her face with her shirt.  Still, she didn't move a bit, even though you can hear her breathe getting deeper and faster.  I started to finger her and rub on her down there.  She was starting to get really wet, and it was time to undressed her altogether.  

Still, she was pretending to sleep.  I gave her an oral and she started to moan.  I couldn't hold any longer.  I took my cock out and started to slide my cock into her.  Her pussy was really tight and I was only able to get in halfway.  As I proceeded, she screamed in agony and asked what was going on.  She removed the shirt that was covering her face, only to realize that I was actually protruding my cock inside her pussy.  She said she wasn't ready, and kept on struggling to get me too from her.  My lust and desire had taken over my conscience, and I began trusting my penis deeper.  She bited me, pinched me, scratched me, did everything she could to escape.  I just stopped there, didn't know what to do next.  Lust has conquered my mind, and I started to get deeper and deeper, until I reached to the bottom.  We both stopped, and she didn't move at all.  The next thing I realized as I back off, there were blood on my cock.  She cried, and I felt deeply regretful.  I apologized and I told her that I would love her with my life.  She didn't say a word and started to wipe the blood off.  I didn't know what to do as I watched her putting her clothes on and leaving the room.  That concluded our relationship.

what did you do to apologize after she left?  or you just let go?

I would comfort you, but you're not the girl... it seems like she is the one who needs comforting. :smile_35:

Anyways, I am sure you just want to let it out of your system.  I hope you feel better after you've let it out.

Telling people is the first step to getting over a painful experience, so I hope you will eventually get over this since you can type this out for others to read.  

I hope the girl find the happiness she deserves and you hadn't scared her away from sex forever.  :smile_35:

i wanted to PM you, but you don't have enough points.  
I typed out an almost-rape experience, thought you may want to hear the female perspective on similar situation: http://www.188channel.com/viewthread.php?tid=9187228

I think you should try to get in touch with the girl, see how she is doing.  You really need some sort of closure to get over the incident, otherwise it'll haunt you forever. 

Maybe the girl will forgive you, maybe not, but at least have a proper talk with her about it, how foolish you were, or even if not, maybe seeing that she has a happy life now will be enough.  

o, sorry to hear your rude acting. how was the school life with her afterwards ?:smile_27:

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原帖由 kevinkwank 於 2009-3-20 05:07 PM 發表 查看引用來源
I have kept this story inside me for so many years... :'):')

It took place when I was in UC Berkeley studying for my BS in Civil Engineering.  It was my freshman year and I decided to check out ...
It is sad to learn that your relationship with her ended in such a way.  Also u are lucky that she did not call the Police.  As you grow older and from this experience, I am sure that you know how to react or control yourself when similar circumstances arise.

uh-oh... how can you do that... i really feel sorry for it... UCB... really disappointed...

Sorry for the girl and perhaps for you too... anyways, it's a good thing that you threw it out so that some of us --- guys --- know about the need to keep our urgent desires to ourselves... I really suggest that you talk to the girl again, tell her how sorry you have felt and ask her for forgiveness... it might make both of your lives easier...

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原帖由 亞波羅 於 2009-3-20 08:16 PM 發表
o, sorry to hear your rude acting. how was the school life with her afterwards ?:smile_27:
yeah,im wondering n interested in as well.can share some more with us?
do u find that feel better after talking to us?maybe we can help in some way.
anyways,be strong,u should let bygones be bygones!

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原帖由 Henryw3 於 2009-3-21 03:15 AM 發表
Sorry for the girl and perhaps for you too... anyways, it's a good thing that you threw it out so that some of us --- guys --- know about the need to keep our urgent desires to ourselves... I really s ...
to be honest,i agree with it.
if i were u,i would choose to find her,n never let her leave again,if u do love her.
anyways,wt happened then?hv u tried to find her?:smile_35:

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