seldom read such a long thread at a time;
at the beginning, it seemed u're so silly and blind, but now you are on the right track (luckily u accepted opinions and met nice ppl here
), happy for you.
No need to force yourself to forget sth., just give yourself time and spend sometimes with your fds. Don't use a love replace another. :smile_13:
Good luck and 25 is not old, many good experience awaiting for you.