同EJ sex好夾...
我相信佢唔會揾到比我更好..
我都係...

但我捻我同佢都唔小心將一段原本大家認同只應有性的關系認真....
不過我比他更認真... 我真心想發展....

分左手好多次都分唔到...
我地一見面就好好, 因為慣左乜都同大家講...
佢一次比一次狠心...
話佢未玩夠, 將來只會hurt我...

最后果次我發脾氣:
"sex知嘛, 你估得你比到我...? 你估我要揾揾唔到"
EJ好angry... 成個月都(男女男)我...
我認為我地分左手了...
(后來2-3星期前因為我M遲左十日, 我驚之下開始同EJ聯絡返... EJ知道我分手后無同其他人有關系, 無(男女男)我... 而家有時有傾msn/電話... )
(其實佢(男女男)乜春...? 話分手又係佢, 話只想有性有係佢...)

that was 6 weeks ago...
呢六個星期我唔性生活...
約會是要... 很多...
但腦海裡想的都是EJ...
約會未夠一半多數已經想走...
吖~ 根本唔mood比其他人接近我...

琴晚去我個friend的一間餐廳...
佢一向同太太有問題, 性生活幾年都沒有了...
而他一直也對我好open地要求有性關系...
但我一向都狠狠地拒絕...
琴晚真係為正經時而去的, 我promise左幫佢design個website.
但我地end up 傾佢老婆, 佢越傾越(男女男)...
飲左好多酒... 跟住同我......
我想試下其實同EJ以外的人... 所以我比佢一步步對我的接近...
佢慢慢一路幫我massage, 一路膜我,
我當然下面施晒... 但個心其實好反感...
正常情況下我唔會再比佢進下一步...
但我其實想知道點解同EJ分左手后6個星期仲對佢甘忠心...
好似我地唔分開過甘,
所以比佢繼續... 但到最后果刻, 發現無condom, 所以無插入...

而全程都佢做主動... 所以我無膜過佢...
我其實都唔想膜... ><
佢最后自己打左出呢...
我返到屋企覺得自己好disgusting, 成晚瞓唔著...
點解同EJ可以玩到甘淫, 同其他人就連人地惦我我都接受唔到...?

經過琴晚, 我已經決定左...
想搵返EJ, 就算只有性關系都好...
我可以點...?

EJ ?????????????

long time nonsee blue blue
still keep with EJ?

that's the situation.
what to do...?
i want him back.

just for sex only maybe, he's moving to beijing for 2 years in the fall, so i don't want anything long term.
i think his beijing trip works best for both of us.

I see
so how is your life in there?
I think you just ask to EJ,what you want
tell him you want stay with him for any relationship at time

rosey.
same case with u....
sigh.........want to die.

i sent him an email last night asking to get back to where we were before.
i don't know if that's the best way, but... i don't want to be aggressive about it.
or i'd show up at his place naked. hahahhaa. ;p

i'm doing good otherwise, keeping myself busy.

女人先有的問題..?

我已經唔知佢想要D乜,
我滿足唔到你.

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