最近嘅狀態...無欲無求,不痛不癢...但,我唔鐘意咁嘅狀態,不心疼代表不心動。我甚至今晚同朋友講,我想搵個可以比到心痛感覺我嘅人,喺咪好自虐?我唔知。
果種心痛,自我同你恢復朋友關係果一晚,已經塵封咗。個心,好似都喺果一晚關閉咗。
好傻,今晚突然想寫Email比你,因為你話,那你會定期咁check Email,喺,我哋仲有wechat,我哋仲有LINE contact,我知,你好忙,一份偉大嘅工作救死扶傷。但我send比你嘅相,石沉大海。無回應,I need a Doctor...
突然發覺,手機contact list無咗你個名,唔知點解,可能手機發傻,好驚,但我知只要揾,總會揾到。我真係突然突然好想搵你Email address出嚟寫嘢比你。終於,我搵到了,thousands of msg中,我搵到了,同時,我都睇翻之前你send比我嘅msg,sweet,天亮說晚安嘅感覺,好暖,你對於我嚟講,喺一個暖男,一個溫暖我心靈空缺嘅暖男,當我聽翻你send比我嘅voice msg,果一份久違嘅心痛衝上心頭...喺,心痛感,伴隨著眼淚流出。邊聽邊流。
Sat, 13 Dec:
Read your update
Someone jealous
Love U
is it U update that to make me remember how I love U?
Deliberatly make me jealous?
仲有果啲,好溫暖嘅3 secs voice msg,“同埋我想同你講...早晨啊,傻瓜”
4secs: “咁不過同時間都同你講,早抖,你要瞓得好好哋喔。”
3 secs: "翻到我公司啦,影張相比你睇都好喔。"(唔喺制服唔喺sex pic,喺你工作嘅用車...
6 secs: "無啦,同你講早晨跟住同你講埋晚安咯,因為你要瞓啦。"
5 secs: "同埋喺,我睇完你個post...我幻想個情景...喺我同你咯..."
4 secs: "咁好難唔呷醋噶啵,我唔理啊,人哋令到你咁我都會呷醋我都想令到你咁咖喔。"
Need to know all details!!! Since U are mine >.<
Kiss U when U are asleep
本身好sweet嘅msg但卻令我淚如泉湧,喺,我成功了,我搵得翻而且揾到果份果種心痛嘅感覺了,但只不過,果個人已經唔再屬於我,唔再喺我身邊。但,會喺我心入面一個好特別嘅位置,每次諗起你,會痛,但盡量唔去回憶。越多嘅甜蜜只會越多嘅心跳。
我唔知,我要幾耐,先可以將你放輕,但我情願...呢隻心痛,永遠存在。話我知,我其實有幾愛你。曾經,宜家,或在未知嘅將來...
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