my bf is the most accepting person i've met, so i felt really comfortable telling him about my past... 
my bf... mm, yeah, he wasn't very sexually active at some points of our relationship, probably due to stress and stuff, and it does bother me sometimes, but not so much right now.

sexuality... i gave up wondering about it, what's the point on deciding a "label" for myself.  in the end, it doesn't matter what i am, as long as i can accept what i do and the person i have association with (be it sex or a relationship)... but which means i am most likely bisexual. heh.  

kevin
please dont feel too regret about it again and again....
it is all over.... and seems there is no way back....
if you really want to find her back.....
there should be a way.....singapore is not that big....

if he knows all ur pasts, why is he still so mad at u about ur casual sex in hong kong?  
i mean, i thought he knows that (1) you hv strong desire in doing it, (2) you still love him while you WERE doing it, (3) you would still love him no matter what, (4) he can't keep up with you... maybe im wrong... and pls dun yell at me if im... :smile_13:

thank you, Jon
i actually got back from Singapore not too long ago (5 months)... :')
Singapore is not big, but i dunno if she's in singapore... and besides, she has no friend... that makes it even harder to find her...

i think accepting her pasts is somehow different from accepting her to repeat the same thing again
it is quite hard for bf/gf to accept their counterpart to having sex except him/herself....

do you know her fullname?
maybe you will be able to find her back in facebook.....

if you see her again.... what will you do to her... other than just a sorry?

you're right about 1,2,3,4...
but i guess guys are possessive about their own precious gf?  
but it's because eventually he does understand the 1,2,3,4 that he forgave me and we're still together.  

can u live w/o sex (or just cyber sex)?  if not, it'll be very difficult for you since your hving long-d w/ him... i think if he forgive you this time, he might let it go another time... until it doesn't matter to him anymore... :smile_35:

i think she already heard enough "sorries" from me... in different forms... i still think of her and still love her... even though ive lost her for 5 yrs... and i hv remained single for 5 yrs... i tried facebook, xanga, etc... but i still couldn't find her... she's nearly "doesn't exist" on the internet...

if that girl i am sorry for tells me one day that she've had sex w/ many guys and still continue doing it, i would still accept her... but i don't think it'll never happen since she has always been an innocent girl... maybe i won't even get to see her again in my lifetime...