88 .. see you ~~~

in the past 6mths, my life got big change too there two issues happened at the same time............i wanted to suicide in that period.......but i am lucky i didn't do it.........otw i will be really regret myself...........we got a big world.......nothing is impossible....that is real........so be positive man.....

being positive is a bit hard ...
I am get used to being hurt in love so give up that sometime ago ...

so how are you now ?

i am much more better now, even sometime the bad things will suddenly show up in my mind, but i know i still hv a very long way to go with my current one, so i need to be fare to him.........i think i am abit lucky, coz in that period even now, i got a lots a lots of frds n bf to help me out, so let go is very important task for me or everybody........i hope u can do it too......

well, the point is I have use my last 15 years to try to forget but things are still appear ...
she is always being a part of my life ..

sorry i am abit confused here.........she is part of ur life??? is that u r married with her???
u can pm me if u dun want say it here......

that is an old story ..
no .. we dont marry .. if I can .. I have marry with her already ..
just the time makes me cant ....

if i were u........i will try to forget her anyway...........me too i hv been with my ex for ten yrs, i also planned to get marry with him, but end up it is a different story, and if i won't let go, i will never met my new n better one....

well .. I never try to find a better one ...
she is the one in my life already ...

that y u r not happy in ur current life...............so bad( sorry i am being rude)........but u should give urself a chance, u knew that ur past is a history, u can't change it, u only can try meet a better one in the future......