the point is security is always a part of love ..
once you are hurting in this way and you will never able to recover....

to be honest, only time can solve the problem but no one knows it takes so long ..

take it easy jess, put ur past behind........
i think they need a good listener n time atm, just try ur best to help them back to the rite way..........otw u got nth to do

pm told you:smile_44:

tats ok jess, u can talk anything u want in here, we r frds ma.....

ok.......

time can't really solve it ...
just make it feel less pain........as i try to forget it..

but when the is sth remind you... then that hard feeling comes out again...
better not to try ever...
it really never recovers.....



and last time i just collapsed in macau  last year.....
i am alone in that 2 room flat....
only TV show and me. and silent......
no internet.... no phone calls.... no fds beside///.......
no where to go... no where i belong...


this is part of the reason i am so worry about going this time......

i just feel what i said have no power at all lei......

now i just want to kill those guys who hurt my girls...
they are not those kind of 狐狸精 girl.......
don't know why things become like this.....



i think i giving out too many negative energy...
i really don't trust men.....

i agree jess.........but when honestly i think everyone need to learn how to let things go, otw u will never cant face the future........that is my experience........


how abt can pay for the internet fee, n i thing most of the hotel in macua will got wireness broadand..........so u may not alone.....

I got better understanding about the Macau issue now ...

and to be honest, the past is really affecting people's future ..
I have a lot of stuffs always appear in my mind again and that is a reason that I really dont know how to love ..

when you give out love, you will give 100% in the first time ..
but after serveral time, the % you give out will be less ..
as you have try to protect yourself ...

I agree that men is not trustable ..
men is always have a bad part on it ...
no mens dont tell lies .. it is always a basic fact ..